I'm not looking forward to labor, but I'm also not scared or nervous this time. I'm kind of apathetic. The MOMENT after he's born, when they put him on my chest is what I'm looking forward to. Labor and birth are like something I'm going to do and take pride in, but not so much a pleasant experience for me as a human one. A fundemental human experience that is part of being a mother. It doesn't matter if my birth ends in a c-section or the perfect natural birth I want, it's part of the experience and it serves to make the moments that follow that much better, but it's not in and of itself enjoyable for me.