I found a picture book that had pictures of my brother. I lost him in 2009 and it still affects me. It's some thing I will live with for ever. I'm just now realizing it wasn't my fault. I had no control over his death. I sure do miss him.
I'm sorry for your loss. Losing loved ones is the hardest thing to deal with in this life. Even after years go by, the pain never goes away... Sending sympathy and a hug ur way dear :)