I'm not really looking forward to going to California to celebrate Christmas with Sherry and her family, but everything thinks I should. I really wish I could sleep through Christmas. Things are getting worse right now. I'm praying it will get a little better.
I feel so bad that I made Lisa cry last night. We were talking about mom, and she started telling me about how bad her dad had it a few years ago. She started crying. She lost her dad that loved her. Although I don't see how he was so great that he shot himself and made sure that Lisa would find him. She lost her ex-husband who also killed himself, with pills, and then she lost mom. Sometimes I don't know how much people can take. We also lost Vicky, but none of us were very close to her.
Thank God It's the last day of November, but I'm not looking forward to December. Mom always loved Christmas, and she really decorated her house, to look great. December is really going to be hard this year.