I have an amazing SO. He’s generous, hard working, respectful, honest. We have a blended family that works with none of the usual kid jealousy drama.
He keeps us in a nice comfortable life. I don’t have to work.(But I do part time). We take little get aways every month. We have nice things. We just bought a beautiful home. He spoils me like crazy, treats me so good. He loves me like crazy. We have a pretty close to perfect life. Pretty enviable, so I hear.
My confession... it’s not enough for me. I’m happy but I want more. I love him but I want that crazy kind of love. Hes all about his relationship and his family. I don’t really fit the monogamous mold and have struggled to be faithful to anyone my whole life (something he has always known) On occasion I have strayed in the past. Discreet and short dalliances. It’s like a little itch I need to scratch and then its done and I’m back to my normal self. I have no guilt about it. That’s my big secret, I feel like I’m two people. Ones a great mom and spouse, and totally happy in that life. The other is an adulteress and I feel like I have no control with the devil comes knocking.