On the night before our wedding he tried to sleep with someone else. He was flirt texting her on our honeymoon too. He had just turned 18 and I know we shouldn’t have married so young, but I was pregnant and I wouldn’t have married if I had known about it. It was almost two years ago and I can’t seem to get over it. He came clean almost a year after it happened and I still feel betrayed and duped into marriage. It affects our sex life and I turn him down a lot over it and sometimes I do it just to make him happy but lay there the whole time and wait for him to finish. I feel like he’s grown a lot since then and has apologized a lot and claims he wouldn’t do that anymore but I don’t know. I just don’t know how long til I can shake the betrayed feeling.
Someimtes forgiveness is something we simply choose to do. Because the only choice is forgiving or living in endless anger.
I am not saying what he did was OK, or that being 18 is an excuse. Nothing he can do or say will change the past. But for you, choosing to forgive would mean being able to move on and give the marriage a chance. Otherwise it will be doomed, and you will always be holding on to this hurt.