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Anonymous
DH is a P*****
by Anonymous
October 24, 2013 at 2:33 PM

Okay the title is mean. I only put it to get your attention. But it is kind of true.


So, I am the girl who is torn between her husband and her daughter's father. And I've been texting and calling my daughter's father not about my daughter.

It may seem like I am a troll because of the way I word things or my e-tone but I am not. This is what I am really going through.

Let me just explain something so you can better understand.

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My husband and I have been together since our first year of highschool on and off. I knew him even before I knew my daughter's father. But he has always been the back up plan and he accepts that from me. I left him for so many men and whenever it didn't work out, I would go back to him. Time and time again. Over and over. I fell in love with him for loving me no matter what crap I pulled.

But I look down at him for not having a back bone. I look down at him for accepting my bullshit. After all the times he took me back, it is extremely hard for me to take him seriously. He is such a pushover but I LOVE him for loving me and that is the only reason. I feel like I made the biggest mistake marrying him becuase now I can't easily leave him. I thought he was the one which is why I married him until I realized I ONLY loved him because he loved me unconditonally. But he has no self esteem.

My daughters father however, I lost my virginty to him. I love him because of the way he makes me feel. I love him because he accepts me for who I am. He never forces me into doing anything I don't want to do unlike me husband who is trying to mold me into this housewife. I love him because he has a great sense of humor. I love him because he is a great father. I love him because the sex was SO good. I can go on and on but the point is. I love him for more than JUST loving me.

I married my husband as a last resort almost. I married him because it was easy. I married him  because I setteld. And now I regret it.

I don't want to leave him because I know it will crush him. That and he has threatened to try his hardest to make sure I lose everything, including my kids if we seperated. I feel stuck. I am not happy. I don't know what to do.




Replies

  • mtdew
    by mtdew
    October 24, 2013 at 2:36 PM

     Honestly, it sounds like your self esteem may be lacking also.  Like you can't be without a man. 

  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous
    October 24, 2013 at 2:36 PM

    You sound like a horrid person. Leave your Husband to be with your ex. Let him move on from you, and I'm sure the ex thing won't work out either, so do it!

  • AnHpuresugar
    October 24, 2013 at 2:36 PM
    So sad. Go to therapy. You have convinced yourself that your father's daughter is all that and a bag of chips. If you were with him, the reality of who he really is would smack you in the face.

    Your husband deserves to be with someone that wants to be WITH HIM. You have issues and have decided that it is because of someone else instead of finding out what the hell is going on with you.

    The grass is not always greener. Make an appointment with a decent therapist, ASAP.
  • 256bamamom
    October 24, 2013 at 2:36 PM

    So why didn't you marry your daughter's father?

  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous
    October 24, 2013 at 2:37 PM
    I think you are a bored troll
  • kjfamily
    October 24, 2013 at 2:38 PM
    You don't deserve either guy. You are a user and cheater.
  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 24, 2013 at 2:38 PM


    I can. I have been without a man before. Many times.

    Quoting mtdew:

     Honestly, it sounds like your self esteem may be lacking also.  Like you can't be without a man. 



  • EAzizM
    by EAzizM
    October 24, 2013 at 2:38 PM
    Do him a favor and leave. He will find someone who deserves him.
  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 24, 2013 at 2:38 PM

    We didn't realize we were both still intersted until recently

    Quoting 256bamamom:

    So why didn't you marry your daughter's father?



  • grey7399
    October 24, 2013 at 2:39 PM

    You're an ass.


    You should lose everything because you continually show the inability to make good decisions.

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