A lot of fucking anger, and a lot of hurt and some regret.
All of them on deep levels that I really need to deal with in time but right now I have so much HATE in my heart that I can't let go of. It eats at me and I really don't know how to let go. 90% of it is directed at one person. He's ruined me in so many ways.
So here I am. Another sleepless freaking night. I have everything that SHOULD make me happy. But I'm so fucking angry.