For the past couple of weeks i have been losing my vision. It just comes andgoes. One second everything will be fine, the next i go completely blind. So i finally am able to go to the eye dr bc my income tax came back. I asked my mother to drive me and watch the kids during the exam. Its probably not best that i drive. She whines and complains that she doesnt want to, she lives 2 miles from me. So i asked her to come over and watch them, she doesnt want to. Well my DH came home early from work, asked him to either come or watch the kids, doesnt want to. I feel like i do fucking everything and when i really need the help no one gives a shit. Im so mad. My vision is important, its not like i have a toothache. I cant fucking SEE. After crying on the phone my mother finally agreed to come sit with them, but that i cant take to long. Im in tears bc im so frustrated.
*update* my DH finally agreed to go, after lots of eye rolling. So i called my mother and told her. She screamed at me for "thinking only of myself" and when i started crying she hung up on me. I admit that i tend to be a floormat and i shy away from confrontation. I know im meek and im working on it. Ive just had it! This is serious and i feel like they dont give a rats ass that im afraid.
**UPDATE**I Just left the eye dr. Im now waiting on the neurolgist. I have been having mini strokes, that is what was causing the blindness. Im confused bc i am only 25, in good health, i do occasionally smoke, but other than that im healthy!! IDK. Im just so scared.