We are both in very serious relationships with other people, but if he dumped the poor excuse of a girl hes with now, i'd leave my DF in a heartbeat.
Hes the best baby daddy ever and has never missed 1 day of his visitation, and will take our kid whenever i need him too. he pays child support on time, and helps out when i need money. Hes got the bad boy look but hes the sweestest ever. i messed up and i don't think he'd ever look at me that way again.
it kills me to get on his facebook and see photos of him with our kid knowing hes not mine and thats not our family anymore, and every photo he posts of him and his girl, i save to my computer and edit out her part of the photo.
i still have his name tattooed on my boob from when we were together, even tho he covered mine up.
hes my world.
my password for facebook is still hesmynate69
i f'ing love him.
i wish he could see that. but until he does, i facebook stalk him.
like today, he posted on facebook
"stayed home today just needed a day to spend with lil dude while kris is at work. love days alone with my lil kman"
which kinda gave me the idea their fighting.
i can hope <3333
yes this seems kinda stalkerish but i need to keep utd on what hes doing.
theres my confession for the night.
people keep asking why im with df if im in love with bd
i do love df but the love for bd is just much more. bd is up on this fake lil pedastool were df is just a normal person. i'd do anything for bd! i didnt leave him he left me. i didnt cheat on him, i got into drugs a few times and after the 2nd time of catching me he gave me the choice of rehab or custody battle and at that time i had to pick custody battle. i wasnt ready to give it up.
he knows how i feel about him. i've told him over and over again.
as im typing this we are talking on facebook and i plan on telling him again and honestly seeing about giving it a second chance.
i'll post the convo afterwards.
drugs were a mistake, and it still haunts me til today. i only get custody of my son TWO days a week. his dad gets 5 days a week so technically im a part time parent but i dont claim to be. im the only one my son has.
i want us to be a family.
and his response...which really made things even worse.
maybe things arent suppose to be...but this doesnt change my love for him.
i have him added under another name so i can still see whats going on with him, but that wasnt the response i was wanting.
i put time and effort into mine and he was just being a ass.
by AnonymousJanuary 16, 2013 at 11:06 PM
Wow, I'm glad you're so respectful to your FIANCEE! He's your ex for a reason, move on.
by AnonymousJanuary 16, 2013 at 11:07 PMHow can you be in love with a man who didn't marry, or at least stay with, the mother of his child?
It is a little stalkerish, but I've done it before. I'm sure most women have been hung up on a guy at one time or another. The only concern I have is you being in love with someone, but marrying someone else. That could cause big problems. Personally, I'd talk to your babies dad and let him know how you're feeling before you get married. That way if he feels the same way you don't marry your df and save everyone some heartache.
by LoveMyLosJanuary 16, 2013 at 11:07 PMGot my seat!