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Anonymous
I Just Can't Figure Out ...
by Anonymous
October 13, 2012 at 7:15 PM

What to do...!?

I know I am not the only one in this group, or in this world that is struggling. I am a mom of one, in a long time divorce (almost there!:) I work part time for the government (They don't give full time until you are there for two years or more) And I'm living with my Grandparents (Because I moved here from another place to start this job).

I have a beat down car(all I could get) that I pay $130 on each time I get paid (every 2 weeks). Insurance comes out to $240/month (BC of my Age-22 & Area I live in ugh) I got the Go Phone plan so I pay $50/month. I have Health Insurance that comes from my Job so that another $131 every time I get paid so $262/month. I am also paying off some bills that I have... and I've tried getting rid of any extras. I help in the house and give my grandma $400 and pay my gas and neccesities.

Since my job is Part time, I get paid $13.94/hr and work 25hr/week. I try to push for more but its tough to get. So thats approx. $1,395/ month. So $1,212 in the bills above not including gas and food and whatever debt I have because of XH(medical expenses) And of course my job takes out all the extras. I am always broke before payday is over. Sometimes I don't even have gas money. I ALWAYS make sure my DD has everything she needs no matter what I have to do! Her bio dad doesn't pay CS. He's not even in the picture.

I got my new schedule (bc we have to bid on it) and chose 1000-1500 just so I can take and pick up DD from school. I wish I could have another job but then I don't really have anyone to watch my child. (My grams watches my other two cousins). I even applied for SNAP a few days ago so we can get some food in this house.And while at it, I am opening a CP case. Getting PayDay Loans is draining and I don't want to resort to that too much or im just losing money myself.

So to the point, I went today to work and for the first time I acted like an utterly BITCH. Like I wasnt mean to no one but I didnt TALK and I just wasnt my HAPPY GO LUCKY self. I feel like I am wasting my time here. Don't know what to do and Im trying so damn hard. I just want to leave sometimes.. but CANT! I hate this. I came here for the better life.. wtf now???? Whats left to do? I cant even get my own place!

 

Sorry so long... but WTF is there left to do?? What would you do??

My only reason for staying strong is because well, My DD IS THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE!

Replies

  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 13, 2012 at 7:21 PM
    BUMP BUMP !? no one?
  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 13, 2012 at 7:24 PM
    bump
  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 13, 2012 at 7:24 PM
    bump
  • AF2011
    by AF2011
    October 13, 2012 at 7:28 PM
    At least you have a job. I would file for CS. It will help a little bit towards your dd's needs.
  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous
    October 13, 2012 at 7:34 PM

    Get a part time evening job on top of your part time day job.  Waitress on the weekends.  If you dd is anywhere near old enough she can walk back and forth to school and stay home alone for a short while if you can get better hours.  It's tough, there are a lot of hard choices to make and decisions you will not like.  I hate having my child walk back and forth to school alone and stay after school alone but it needs to be done and lot of other kids do it.  Good luck.  Maybe think of something you are good at making and selling on the side? Go after child support.

  • Shani527
    October 13, 2012 at 7:43 PM

    Um...how long you got until you get full time? Stick it out? Why cant you look for a different job?

  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 13, 2012 at 7:54 PM
    Im goin after Cp but my dd is five and she doesnt hardly speak english and theres no way id have her walk. Shes not old enough nor mature enough for it.

    Quoting Anonymous:

    Get a part time evening job on top of your part time day job.  Waitress on the weekends.  If you dd is anywhere near old enough she can walk back and forth to school and stay home alone for a short while if you can get better hours.  It's tough, there are a lot of hard choices to make and decisions you will not like.  I hate having my child walk back and forth to school alone and stay after school alone but it needs to be done and lot of other kids do it.  Good luck.  Maybe think of something you are good at making and selling on the side? Go after child support.

  • Anonymous
    by Anonymous - Original Poster
    October 13, 2012 at 7:55 PM
    I have another year and thats if they offer it to you. Im currently lookng an ive been trying for supervisor or lead autmatic full time

    Quoting Shani527:

    Um...how long you got until you get full time? Stick it out? Why cant you look for a different job?

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