I'm sorry for your loss. There are a couple baby loss groups on CM you may want to check out.
Hugs to you, I hope that you can find a support group or someone that you can talk to, to offer you support, a listening ear and just be there for you.
16 years ago on my end and it doesn't go away per-say. it does get better though. i still have good and ugly days.
I'm so sorry to hear that! You will never get over it hun but it does get easier. (((hugs)))