I am sorry you are. My son is early enlist & leaves in June. We are very proud of him & knew this is where we was going. He has wanted to since 3 & never waivered, so I know this is his goal. My husband was in for 9 years so it is not as hard for me. I also think of it other ways than others do so it doesn't bother me the same others do. There is a board for moms with kids in the military join there, they can help alot.