Big hugs momma. I have fibro too and it is really hard to know when to stop sometimes. I am 29 and it's just not fair that we can't get up and go like a lot of other young moms. I get really angry about it and will over do just because I am pissed that my body won't work like I want it to. Then I regret it for days. There is a coping with chronic conditions group on here. I don't know if you are already in that one or not but they are good to talk to and they understand.
I am so sorry you have to deal with this; I also have fibromyalgia so I understand the feeling you have to push through the pain and get things done. It sounds like you need to find a healthier balance in your life. It is hard to admit we aren't up to doing things and it is even harder to give ourselves a break. Try to take it easy on yourself. You didn't choose to have these illnesses, but you can choose to be the best you that you can be. Some exercise is great but don't overdo it; maybe something more gentle like yoga and walking. I would also suggest that you talk with your husband about this. I find that the things I don't want to talk about are the things that need to be faced, dealt with and discussed. Good luck and take care of yourself. Think of it this way; what if it was your best friend (or any loved one!) that was treating herself this way. I bet you anything, you would only want her to be good to herself.
I honestly understand! I don't have lupus, but I do have fibro. I am hosting Thanksgiving at our house this year because my mother is having back surgery next week, and is in so much pain she can barely move, and my in-laws are getting older, and have no business hosting it either. I cooked almost non-stop Sat., did some yardwork, and then, to top it off, ran for 30 min. I should've know how utterly terrible I would hurt afterward, but that's the only time I have to do the work! I'm working 9-10 hour days this week, with a 1 hour commute each way, so I don't have time at night to do much other than cook supper, help my dd with homework and get her into bed. You are NOT stupid, and it is very hard to admit that your body will not obey you sometimes. Rest, relax, and get back feeling healthy soon :)
Thanks mommas :) I'm still hurting today. Not nearly as much. I think I will try and talk to my husband, the thing is I almost feel guilty. I feel like such a burden. Like of I am sick again. I am sore again. So I try sooooo hard to just push through it . To just suck it up and push through the pain. I don't want him to hate me for it. To think I'm whining. :(
I don't think he would at all he is soo supportive.