I can't wait! In one year from yesterday.... I'll be the happiest woman alive!
I can't wait until I say "I do" to the man of my life! I've been
waiting forever to meet someone who is comparable to my dad and Jay is
every bit comparable.
My dad and I may have not have seen eye to eye growing up, but there
are so many things that he taught me growing up, Family matters, love
with all your heart, no matter how many times you fall down you better
get your damn ass up and keep moving.
Since Jay's been around, I haven't fallen once because he hasn't even
let me trip. He stands right next to me and holds my hand and makes
sure that I'm strong not matter what we go through. He's definitely my
rock! I love you more and more with every day that passes! I can't wait
until I'm your wife!
I don't think any of you know this so I'll forwarn you now... lol..... DF and I live an alternative (BDSM) lifestyle. So this next paragraph has the sites that I used to go on or am on currently with the lifestyle, just so you understand it a bit more.
A lot of you who have known me or have grown to know me over the
years know that when I first started on CollarMe I was a smart mouthed
bitch, subby/slave, switchy whatever, then I turned Domina and all hell
broke loose because I thought I was tough shit. I developed a family
here on FetLife and a friend of mine took me under his wings and would tell
me "GIRL" (god that still makes me cringe) "BITE ME BITCH" and than he would
tell me to listen and say "Kat, you are not a full sub, but your no
Domme either! Embrace yourself and let it ride!"
Before I met Jay I can honestly say that I was on the road to
destruction. I was sleeping around, my head wasn't on straight, I was
struggling to make ends meet with my finances, kids, etc, and I was
about to have a mental break down. I met Jay and it was like "SLAP,
bitch, this is your soul mate!" Seriously! This man standing at my door
with cookie sheets to come help me bake Christmas cookies was my soul
mate! We had so much fun that night. Baking, laughing, joking, talking,
finding out we have the same exact birthday just 6 years apart (yes I'm 6
yrs older than him). After my kids went to sleep we talked more, he
sucked my toes and I swear for the first time I almost orgasmed, which I
hate having my feet touched so that was odd in itself. The way he
touched me, made me feel, looked at me, even just his presence in the
house put me at such ease, made me feel safe and like a woman.
For the past year and 9 months, he has just continued to impress me.
No matter the financial struggles, medical problems, issues with the
kids, or "Baby, I'm too tired, not tonight" I've given him. This man
still grabs me just like the very first time and kisses me and it still
feels like the first kiss. He makes a point to kiss me every morning
when he wakes up not matter if it's on the cheek when I'm working my day
job or cuddled up next to him in the bed. Throughout the day, he'll
stop what he's doing to kiss me, hug me or call me to tell me he loves
me or thinking about me. Sends me random cock pictures (always a
wonderful sight btw... drools) or pictures of him doing random silly faces.
Without this man..... I don't know where my children and I would be.
Wherever it would have been, it wouldn't nearly be as happy, wonderful
and insane, because Jay isn't here!
Happy Anniversary Babe! Love you and I can't wait until I'm your wife
and this time next year we're 1/2 way through the alcohol at the
reception and even deeper in love than we are today with at least 60 yrs
of marriage ahead of us!!!