Pretty mucy how always feel with a little extra financial strain and I like driving in the dark during winter more with all the lights and decorations. I don't decorate but like all the lights everywhere.. makes life more pretty and interesting.
I live in Wisconsin and winters get long! without decorations and lights everything would be so drab. I kinda wish people would do it year round. I don't have any friends or family really like most though so sometimes get jealous of other people my age with parents who want to see their kids and grandkids or have holiday get togethers. And I'm a single parent and none of my kids have contact with their biological father due to abuse and its not safe. He isn't allowed to anyways but it all falls on me in every way possible.
Anxious and stressed, with flashes of happiness when everything is going well for the kids and husband.
We are at the ILs and so I have zero control of my day. I am not even told what we will be doing most days. I am expected to follow along, mostly to places with large crowds of people I don't know well, and act pleasant as soon as I am told to get into a car. I'm in the way a lot while MIL is cooking or cleaning, yet I can't do either well enough to really help her, and I don't know when to offer if I could. This is not easy for me. I just want thenm to be over and everyone else to be happy. Happiness for me is pretty much only coming from that.
I love the holidays in principle, I just wish I knew what to expect. My husband thinks that is unreasonable, given how big his family is, so no chance. This year, I am taking anti-anxiety stuff.
I have a love/hate realtionship with them. The financial strain stresses me out, but I try to remind myself that it alwasy worked out in the past and it will again. I am having tahnksgiving here, about 15 people, which is really not much compared to some yrs( I have a huge family), but it still will stress me out. My mom can be super critical, she has already called me a milling times offering to come over early and help, but that just stresses me out more. Last year she said she would come a little early,and she showed up at 11 am, dinner wasnt until 4, my house was stilll a mess,lol. I like to have things organized and ready for when people come over on a holiday, I can be a bit of a perfectionist. I do enjoy the decorating and baking, the shopping , and finding the right gifts for people.
I love thanksgiving and christmas, i have a big family living with me 9 of them all my kids and grandkids and husband so always looking forward to the holidays. I thankful and i love to cook for the holidays,laugh together and listen to music and sing.
November 20, 2012 at 12:33 AM
I am usually very happy and excited about the holidays, but right now I'm not feeling well. I feel like I'm wasting away. I have to work for thanksgiving. I hope Christmas and New Years will be better for me. Happy holidays ladies.